I took this from Mr. Lostandlonley35. I thought It was awsome so yeah.

Within myself I hide away. Each broken dream sithin me stays.
Alone I cringe frozen and dead. While pain runs rampant in my head.
The world forsakes me but i still fight. The lonley keeper of the night.
I hide away and love just one. But still I fight and still I run.

This is such an incredibley (XOdont blam me for the spellingXO) song that it has demed worth to be put up on Helsinki Vampires insted of the original Songs page.

HIM ' Dark Light'

Shivers run through the spine
Of hope as she cries
the poison tears of her life delight
in the raven black night
Holding hands with

Dark Light
Come shine over all stars tonight
And blind
All fears that haunted you
Your smile
Dark Light

In oblivious garden
The bodies of fire
Writhing the warmpth of angel devine
To learn how to die
In peace with her heart

Dark Light
Come shine all over the stars tonight
And blind
All fears that haunted you
Your smile
Dark Light

Not all scars show
Not all wounds heal

Sometimes you cant always see the pain some one feels

IM A GLACIER!!!!!!!

Your love will be the death of me

Hey fellow Vampires (for me fellow emo kids),

Well I Dont know whats going on between me and Kevin. I have never been so confused in my life, like I dont know what to even say to him on Monday. But I hope he's going to be there, I do but I dont. Well other than that I changed my Black Widow page to just Songs so as you can guess I'll be posting some songs up there.

Well I have to re-makeup my bant test the one I got a 65 on. And we have another test on Wendsday. I don't have alot to say so I'll type what ever comes to mind. Life is hard. I want to say sorry to Kevin but I have no reason to necause I'm afraid that if I say sorry, he'll make every thing my fault. Well I guess I have to reason with this. Ya never know.

I've been lising to HIM (His Infernal Majesty) latley. Well only one song called 'Poison girl' I dont know why but I am in love with that song. IM SO FUCKING HAPPY!!!!!!!!! THE NEW HIM CD ID COMMING OUT SOON!!!!!!!!!!!! Its called 'Dark Light' Rawrrrr! Thats going to be an awsome CD! I have been drinking the same red bull can for like 7 hrs. Its funny. Well Im going off to checl out some other blogs so see yall later!

Im going to just post up some pictures so what ever!

I took Ms. Perdie's advise and went for it. He dosent want me, and I now realized that I dont want him now like as I said about the song like you want to tell every body and your afraid that the song wil be the big hit well ya know what happned to I dont need to tell you. I guess that I'm now playing the roll of Cinderella but I have no prince so theres a part of me missing. I'm shure you know what I'm talking about but if you dont, you'll know someday. Well I guess it's like they say 'Theres no smoking in bars and soon no drinking and no talking!" Sorry I had to cheer myself up! Well I got a 65 on my band test! I'm proud but as long as I know I could of done better I'm going to retake it on Monday so I hope I do better. Well See ya later

I've always wondered what hurts more,

Saying something and wish you diden't

Or not sayin anything at all?

HIM is the best!!!!!!!!

Hey crackers,

today sucked as usual. I have no clue how in hell I am going to pass my band
test tomorrow. I want to play the French horn *inserts french horn sound* But I play the Trombone *inserts Trombone sound*. Hehe I kno I'm a dork, I love lamp *inserts lamp picture*. I cant wait until the new HIM cd comes out! its called Dark Light you can head over to myspace.com/heartagram to hear their new single ' Rip out theWings of a butterfly' and 'Behind the Crimson door' you kniving little cows can also hear an so called 'Exclusive HIM message all it says is; it says _____________ (band players name: has any one figured out who it is i cant hear) From HIM we are shooting in LA and having good time, excllent time and hope you have it too.' My personal fave is Rip out the Wings of a butterfly *inserts Rip out the wings of a butterfly video or mp3 i dunno wich one it is but ill post it at the end of the post!*. today in 5th period we had to write a poem and I wrote a thank you poem to my pillow! here it is:

Thank you, dear pillow.

You were there for me when times were rough,
Thank you

You have always been there soaking wet when I cried,
Thank you

I always whant yo be with you where ever I am
Thank you

You were always there for me to help me fight back,
Thank you

You where there for me when the whole grid of power went out,
Thank you

I would do anything for you, as you have done for me
Thank you

You were there for my sister too,
Thank you

And now all my gratitude will go to you in the end,

Thank you, my dear pillow.

Life goes on.

You have to take the good with the bad,
Smile with the sad,
Love what you got,
And remember what you had.
Always forgive but never forget,
Learn from your mistakes,
But never regret,
People change,
Things go wrong.
But just remember Life goes on!

To See what we have never seen,
To be what we have never been,
to shed the cryasalis and fly,
Depart the earth, kiss the sky,
to be reborn, be some one new;
Is this a dream or is it true¿?

Can our future be clearley shorn,
From a life wich we're born?
Is each one of us creature free--
Or trapped at birth by destiny?
Pitty those who believe the latter.
Withut freedom nothing matters.

The book of counted sorrows-

This is to someone that I really dont know but I feel like I can relate to what he writes in some ways and I think that you kniving little bastards should go check out his webpage blogger thinges at: Lostandlonley35.blogspot.com . His stuff will really make you think twice shure as hell made me. And I dont know who hes wrighting about but I think I get get though. Mr. lostandlonley person this I thought about all day and think you should read damnit!!!! That or pretend you did and leave a comment to make me feel better. All this just came into my head and then after it I read your comment and checked out your blog and just thought I should right this down and dedicate it to you.

To be someone who was never seen before,
To be running from the fears i've never had,
To be crying the tears that arent there
After all the pain and suffering I put myself through
and now you're not even there.
So now Im just going to stop pretending that your here
I worst battle i'll ever fight is the one within my head
I know I could choose to end this now but we'd both be dead
Sorry I dont do regrets
This life is mine to control
No bitchins not alowed.

All the pimps in the crib ma
drop it like its hot
drop it like its hot
drop it like its hot

When the pigs try to get at cha
park it like its hot
park it like its hot
park it like its hot

If a nigga* get an attitiude
pop it like its hot
pop it like its hot
pop it like its hot

Oh oh oh oh im a gangstag but yall knew that fo shizzle. srry im a big Snoop dog fan.


* all indications with '*' means srry for the language

Hold me like you held onto life, when all fears came alive and entombed me. Love me like you love the sun schorching the blood in my Vampire Heart.

Atreyu 'Rite side of the bed"

I can see her now
Dancing around, her drink in hand
All her baggage in tow
I just want to fucking let her go
Of all the joy, and all of the pain
I took all your guilt and placed it into me
And now I kiss it good bye
Out last dance ended fatal

Who's sleeping on my side of the bed tonight?
Have you ever cried so hard,
Baby you just died

There she goes again
Another masquerade in hand false circumstance
She'll fuck you just for the taste
I wish I could just replace all the meomories,
Of what makes my blood run cold,
And as your blood flows through me
I say good bye to what we had,

She came and went
I gnawed through my lip
Make-up smeared in her eyes
Each sob's a reason to say goodbye,
Sometimes when your holding on
You can never see the light

With flowers in her hair
I gazed apon with a dead lovers eyes,
She never lookes so good and i never felt so right
(she never looked so good)
And i never felt so right

Whos sleeping on my side of the bed tonight?
Have you ever cried so hard
Baby you just died

Whos sleeping on my side of the bed tonight?
Have you ever cried so hard
Baby you just died.

The coldest kiss loves heart is death
Your kisses are just lies sealed with fake happiness
I've fought so hard to believe
I've tried so hard could never be,
I gave it all, just for you and you had to lie to me the whole time,
And now its hard to believe any thing Well, thats it, I even heard you say it, you even had the fucking nerve to answer the phone when she called,
You say you want me back but I know I'll never be able to go back
Now heres what I say; Go a FUCKING head go and be with that kniving little bitch who stole you from me
Heh one day you'll loose her like you lost me, now all I have to say about you is Bitch. Your heart turned to stone.

Heres a song thing that is made up of a bunch of songs and poems smashed together so basically YOU GET THE DAMN POINT!

Here I am pacing around this empty house again,
Its a new day, but it all feels old,
Its a good life, thats what im told,
Im never gonna hear the words you say,
Your so predictable.
LIAR,
Im sick of writing
im sick of writing every
Im sick of writing ever song
Im sick of writing every song about you!
I used to know, the soud of a smile in your voice,
Im tired of singing outside your window,
Some say that time changes, best friends can become straingers.
If you just say with me we can make it through,
Im only complaining to keep myself busy,
im only complaing
im only complaining to keep
im only complaining to keep myself busy sweetie!!!!
I wish I wasen't blaimng you
but I'm sick of
im sick of writing every song about
im sick of writing every song about you
You dont know what you do to me every time you walk into the room,
Every one i meet they all wanna
know why im so broken
why am Iso cold why im so hard inside
why am I scared
why and I afraid
I dont even know
'cause this story never had an end
I've been waiting I've been hoping
I've been dreaming you would come back but
I know the ending of this story
your never coming back.
Never.

every thing in this little poem/song whatever you wanna call it comes from some songs and crettio to: Good Charlotte. The songs that 'contributed' were, Predictable, Say anything, The Anthem, Ghost of you.
the other things that are in there are from 'head Taking back sunday' ill post the whole thing up in about 5 minutes. the head taking back sunday thing. p.s that was the longest no second longest poem/song ive ever written. Ill think ill make it into a screamo/emo-core song.

Enough you kniving little bastards with the damn picures! I am now recentley getting into poetry, not just wird happy poetry but the poetry that wants to make you run home and cry to your little mommie and daddy. Let alone the fact of nothing. Bye bye