Hey there,

I have totally forgotten about this thing! Thats why I haven't updated. I guess this is what I used to be preaching about. Being to wrapped up in your own troubles to mind something small. Pathetic. Now a days, I am not the nicest, happy-go-lucky, chipper chick I used to be.

In fact I noticed that in the past while I have grown much colder and now theres no one closed to my heart. Well, execpt one. But I'm not going to go into details now. Now a days, I can't stand who I am but it's not like I can change overnight. I hate it when people call me "weak". Also, I re-fucking-fuse to go down without a fight.

Half of the time when you say something to me, you have to repeat it because I'm always out of it. Or the music's to loud. When I see people walk by me in school I judge them, in my head, of course. I say all these things that I long to tell people and bottle it up. Eventually, I am going to blow and it will effect all around me. I fear that day more than anything.

Manily I just wanted to see... well read how every one in the blogger world was doing. I check back sometimes and talk to you all later.

Peace, love
and sex,
Caitlin