Helsinki Vampires: lokakuuta 2005

At the end of the world,
Or the last thing I see,
You are,
Never comming home,
Never comming home,
Could I? Should I?
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the things that are ever gonna scar me
Never comming home
Never comming home.

Everything starts as an idea, a vision.

The worst sentence in the world is: "We need to talk."

Well I got over writers block. So I'm not going to be posting much stuff either, because I'm writing some new songs for my cd in the near future. Either in late 2006 or early 2007 I'll be all done with it and MIGHT be looking for a Record lable. Sire records is the one I wanna be with. But hey I'm still young.

Sweethearts im not going to be writing for a while because I have the worst case of Writers Block, and I'll write up some things when I get over it my lovleys.

Sincerley,
Me

Hello sweethearts,

I had my dance today and I has somewhat of a good time. Like me an my old friend form 4th and 5th grade, (named Shawn) were figthting earlier (in the year not at the dance) and we made up, I was happy. And the funny thing is, is that I wore a sexy short blue sparkley dress that went up to my knees and it like criss-crossed in the back and tied in the back it was sexy. Anywho when I saw shawn he just looked at me like I was the hottest girl on earth and like he was like" hells yeah high five!" and I was like "yeah i know I'm hott!" and walked away and continued my night. Things didn't happen between me and Kevin, I was kinda expecting him to comment me on my dress because every one else was just shocked! But I had to keep my other friend Greg from punching out his ex-g/f because of some "relationship" issues from 5th grade . Any who I had to chase him around so he wouldent. And after like 25 mins of chasing him he finnaly sat down in the other room( not the dance room but the place where the food is: no food in the dance room!!!) He'd said hed stop and I did believe him so I took him by had just to make shure and he like twisted it, hmm like in a game of "Mercy" it hurt so bad. And my other friend ( i have alot of friends.. oh wait theres more) Gabe was like staring at me when I walked in, im like "dont ya wish you were still going to the dance with me!" he OBVIOUSLEY couldn't hear me. I was just kinda bummed out until we did the Cha-Cha Slide!! I AM THE EFFIN MASTER AT THE CHA CHA SLIDE!!!! (to the left,.... take it back ya'll cha cha now!! oh you know how it is) And Ciara's 1,2 step came on, and it was a good time. I was dateless but hey I had fun. I also learned two(2) things tonight.
One is: Live every days as if it was your last 'cause one of these days it will be.
And: A kiss blown in a kiss wasted. the only true kiss is a kiss tasted.

See you my lovleys,

Me

Hello my darlings,

I've been rockin' out to HIM latley. I'd like to thank them for helping me make it through this rough 2 and a half years. Well Sweethearts I dont have much to say, latley I've just been posting some pics of HIM and thats it. I'll also get arund to posting up some 69Eyes stuff. Love's I really dont have alot to say, honestley! Shocking isen't it?

Well see you all soon my loves.

from top left: Mige, Linde, Gas
From bottom left: Burton (hes so cute sometimes)
Ville Valo (god i could die in his green eyes)

This is by far my fave song by Tapio Rautavaara. BEWARE IT IS IN FINNISH

Sininen Uni

Joka ilta kun lamppu sammu
ka saapuu okea yo
niin nukku-matti nousse
ja ovehen hijaa lyo

on silla uniset tossut
ja nilla se sipsuttaa
se hiipii ovesta sisaan
ja hyppaa kaapin taa

ja silla on uninen lakki
ja sininen, uninen vyo
ja usista jaatelon palaa
se pienilla hampailla syo

ja silla on sininen auto
ja se auto hyrra nain
surrur, surrur ja lahtee
unen sinisra maataa pain

ja pieni sateenbajarjo
on avian kallellan
ja sinista inien kirjaa
se kantaa kainalossaan
ja unien sinimaahan
se lapser autoa vie.

surrur, surru ja sinne
on sininen, uninen tie.
ja siella on kultainen mesta
ja metsassa kultainen puu
ja unien sinlintu
ja innulla kultainen suu
ja se unien sinilintu,
se lapsa tuudittaa,
se lailaa unisen laulun,

la-la-lal-la-lal-lal-laa

Hey guys im not feelin so well latley so I feel like posting some pics of my all time Idol, Ville Hermanni Valo and im gonna post up is biography from Http://Heartagram.com ((just so ya know where I got it from))

Ville:
Instrument: Vocals, HIM.
Birthday: 22.11.1976
Sighn: Scorpio
Brothers/Sisters: Mige & Linde
Pets: Gas & Burton
Favourite film: Tim Burton's The Nightmare Before Christmas
Lucky Number: 0
Favourite city: Necoropolis
Favourite dish: Body of Christ
Favourite drink: Blood of Christ
Special Intrests: 1980's, Mige's photography, The Orgin of the Blues, Easters Eurpean Folklore, Enochan, Malleus maleficareum.
Idols: Gene Simmons, Edgar Allen Poe, Rauli Somerjoki, Clint Eastwood.
Best song ever: Sininen Uni by Tapio Rautavaara.

<--- Ville Hermanni Valo. ^-^ I could drown in his beautiful green eyes.

Romeo and Juliet, are together in eternety.

Come on baby dont fear the reaper.

I usually hate cartoons but hey this cartoon is pretty P.I.M.P! its called Fosters Home for Imaginary Friends. And this guys name is Bloo and hes awsome.:

I can't see your sad face in your pitiful lies. I don't have the strength to carry out your heavy loaded life. *~*His Infernal Majesty, Ville Valo*~*

I thought this was the funniest thing ever. I took a quiz to see that "dysfunctional" care bear I am and heres what i was:

These are just some random "Love" quotes if that what you want to call it.

I cant see your sad face in your pitiful eyes, I dont have the strength to carry your heavy loaded life.

I feel despair holding our hearts again.

Every second you dident wake up was like hell to me.

Life is but a dream for the dead.

Love dosnt love anybody

Trust is a word all lovers know

We were lovers, we were kissers, we were holders of hands.

Leaving behind hopes of a better love

I dont need a sympathetic smile.

Nothing could ever be perfect, but some things could come close...

I woke up from that fantasy we all love to believe.

one word:

OKTOBERFEST

Heres just a random poem that I need to put (or post) on something before I forget it. this is how I view many guys and this is just my onest opinon on how I see the "male race"

I wach him paint his heart red
I know within in another second
We'll both be dead,
Looking around this cold cringed room
I see intoxicated angels with sorrow
Bringing grief to the grave
Hiding behind this door people will never see
The truth lying dormat within me
Yet every day I let out a sigh of relief
just to be glad.
Hiding behind the gates of Heaven
I am having second thoughts.
With hell freezing over in our eyes
At least I never say the tears you cried

I am a pitiful cold hearted bitch. No. no dont say otherwise. 'Cause I am. I had to tell Steven (the kid i was going to the dance with) that I wasent going to the dance with him because Kevin asked me (the kid that i have a really good feeling about.) I feel like shit

the one and only Casino, cant play this deck of cards ya'll

Currentley listing to: H-I-M "Dark Light"
Current mood: Feeling like shit/ Pissed of a.k.a Not happy

Yup you gussed it, another booring week at school! Well we did go to the YMCA!
And like 50 or 60 kids went one day and 50 or 60 kids went on Wendsday(the first went on Tuesday.) I went on Wendsday and it was a blast although i was scared to death that I was going to fall on the cargo net. You had to climb yo this big net that was on the other side of the rock wall. (my arms hurt to much to do the rock wall but I did do it!!!) The rop hurt my legs to much scince I was so stupid and decided to wear shorts insted of capris! So I had rope burn. But anywho once you got up the cargo net you had to walk acrost this bridge thing like 50ft up in the air and no no no no it wasent any old brifge it had like 4 planks and they were like 3 and 2 feet apart. So i was kinda scared but one I got accrost the lady told me "as soon as I hook you up I just want you to do it and dont think about it just jump." and im like "holy crap!!!!!" and I clung onto the rope. When when i say jump i dont me suicidal jump!!!! like it was a ummm ZIPLINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and mad i was just like "HECK YES!!!!" and yo go over this swamp thing and my teacher Mr. Nichols was just like, "dude that was awsome" cause like right in the middle of the zipline i flipped over and did it upside down(sounds kinda wong!!!)

So I had a blast on Wendsday (10/5/05) but Today(10/6/05) no no no no, God just wanted me to have a sucky band day. What ever it is im doing wrong in band my Band director keeps saying we might have to look at another instrument and im like "what ever it is to keep me in band." 'Cause i cant get the right pitch on slide position 6 or note C on the Bass clef (Trombone.) Like I may not practice alot but when I do I get so mad when some one just walks out there and not noticed that I am practicing!! What do i need to do put casio sighns and billboards up so people know that i am practing!!! I will do that if i have to.

Well im looking forward to a good Friday and I'll post up again either Tomorrow (10.7.05) or on Sunday (whats the date) or on Monday!!

The one and only Casino, cant deal this deck ya'll!

P.s Casio is just my nickname my other one is Charlotte so I'll say either one of those!

See ya and have a great weekend!!!!

Currentley listing to: H-I-M- Dark light (9/27/05) check it out ya'll!!
Current mood: Content

So i have my school dance on Thursday. And I asked my friend Steven and he said yes. But earlier today I talked to Kevin (ya'll kno the story and if ya dont its a long ass one) and his friend Evan. And Evan said Kevin was definitally going to ask me so I dont know like I want mrperdie to give me some advice because she always gives the best advice (so far that I know of). I dont know if Kevin dose ask me should I just go to Steven and be like " hay sorry I can go with you to the dance because the guy that I like so much asked me." But I cant do that because Steven is my friend and wait a minute. If Kevin wants to go with me sooo badley he would of asked me alreghty.... right?

So the new H-I-M cd came out Internatitonally it came out 9/26 but in U.S it came out in 9/27! And I just got it the other day and im going to make a bet with my friend to see how long I can leave it in my cd player until I get sick and tired of it. But H-I-M is my favorite band and Good Charlotte right next to them. Sooo my B-day is comming in on January and I dont know what to get myself!!!! Lol! I just want 3 t-shirts a movie, a book, 2 black beanies(skater/snowboarder hats.) a cd, and a new pair of head phones necause the ones i have only one side works and its annoying when im on the bus and trying to listen to muh new H-I-M cd!

I have been a little annoyed about the whole "fairy tale" my heart keeps telling me is true. Im still playin the part of Cinderella, and every time i get close to meeting my prince at the ball, the evil old stepmother tells me to stay home and scrub the floors and clean up after Lucifer(cat)!